So, I want to say since January 1, 2010 I have been trying & battling my weight, but in reality I've been battling my weight issues since 2002. I've never been fat or really overweight at all. Since Ben & I have been together I have gotten comfortable. 30 lbs comfortable & I've been disgusted with myself the entire way. I've been underweight most of my life. Always the skinny one. At one point my stepsister even told everyone I was anorexic, which for the record I've NEVER been. I've always over eaten. I've found that I eat for a variety of reasons. I'm very much an emotional eater. You name it HAPPINESS, SADNESS, BOREDMON, STRESSED.... I eat & sometimes I eat because I'm actually hungry. Sometimes I eat because it's just there, in front of my face. It's something that makes me happy for the moment & then 20 minutes later I feel like GROSS & GUILTY, so instead of stopping eating & doing something more productive, what do I do ? I got eat more. It's a non ending circle in my world. LOL
So what I've decided to do is write everything I eat down & online. Since Jan 1, I've lost 10 solid pounds. I started out at ....5 foot 5 inches & 150 lbs. as of this morning I was at 136 lbs. NAKED.
My weight loss goal is 125 lbs. I figure if I'm writing it down for the world to see I might stay motivated.
The past 2 weeks I've not been so great with my eating. I've slacked by not eating as healthy as I had been, so today I'm getting back on track. My next goal for myself is to be 130 lbs by March 31. That's basically a month from now. I'm not trying to lose the weight fast, NO DIET PILLS, but with healthy foods and exercise. I tried Weight watchers a few years ago with my mom & I lost about 15 lbs total, about 6 weeks into us doing that, my brother & his wife(then gf) had a horrible car accident. Needless to say my mom & I stayed at the hospital a lot, & I fell off the diet & stopped going to meetings. Why??? Because I am an emotional eater. Enough said.
I put the 15 lbs back on and have stayed steady at 150lbs. Well not anymore.
I'm going to document everything I eat, the reasons, the emotions & what I have do for exercise at the end of the day before I go to bed.
Hopefully with my friends & family reading & following it will help me to stay motivated. :)
You go girl. If I could only weigh 150 again... I'm trying since the 1st of the year I have lost 10 pounds. "Better choices" is me new moto. Trying to eat healthy & exercise more. Easier said than done because I to am an emtional eater.
ReplyDeleteYou hang in there & make sure you are doing it for yourself & you will do great.
hugs, Kathy
I'm there for you! You've always got a friend in me - I'll give you that extra push! I've been feeling the same lately because I haven't been walking hardly at all. I need my buddies around! Maybe we can push each other - from miles apart.
ReplyDeleteI like Kathy's motto - "Better choices." Keep that (and a picture of you that you don't like) in the back of your mind. You'll get through...and remember your cruise later this year. There's motivation!
Good luck - call on me if you need me!
XOXO - your favorite Hawkeye
Hey, I'll add you to my blog reader. I, too, have been trying to lose weight since the beginning of the year. And I'm just starting to acknowledge that I'm an emotional eater. So I'll probably be writing a few blog posts of my own about that.
ReplyDeleteMy advice? Not that you asked for it, really, but try not to beat yourself up too much about emotional eating... because feeling depressed and disgusting is just another emotion that encourages emotional eating, right? Sometimes it's better to realize you've fallen off the wagon, get back on, and celebrate how quickly you corrected yourself rather than beating yourself up for making a mistake. I'm sure you'll be in cruise shape in no time!